Also, was trying to watch Star Trek Beyond and why is Kirk so fucking TERRIBLE at negotiation? Is he or is he not supposed to have been tops in all his subjects? So why was he so sarcastic and impatient and lacking in empathy? Why was the entire negotiation scene played for jokes? Star Trek is SUPPOSED to be about diplomacy as well as fighting, these motherfuckers can only focus on action? Frankly I wouldn't want to live anywhere near the Federation, they are clearly the same shitheads that militaries today are. Which was not quite the intention of the original. This medicore ass, fratboy ass white imperialistic ass fuckwittery tho. Its so frustrating when the fanfic IS SO MUCH BETTER than the shit these so called professionals GET PAID FOR.
Finally watching Cowboy Bebop. SO GOOD. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the architecture of the world, the gates are BADASS and the diversity of the characters?! There are darskinned folk up in there! And I love the fact that they are having adventures but it aint about war. I am so SICK of war. I feel like describing war as action adventure is erasure. War isn't adventure. Not by a long shot.
One thing about it that I didnt like was the story line about terrorist environmentalists. Made me annoyed because I feel like I keep seeing movies in which environmentalists are set up as cuckoo terrorists who go too far. Considering teh fact that coporations and their captive govts are responsible for the current destruction of the planet for human habitation ... says a lot about the ideologies of the ruling class. More environmentalists as heroes I say. And more corporations as the destructive moneygrubbing villians that they are. Speaking of, I need several articles that look into the specifics of corporate welfare. The drumbeat of lazy mooching poor continues unabated while corporations make billions more than in tax dollars the poor ever manage to but have their misdeeds cozily hidden by our fourth estate. Then again corporations own the fourth estate. Apparently folk are going to have to learn up close and personal AGAIN that monopolies are bad for us. Hoo-fucking-ray.
I would like to seee a movie in which a James Bond type or platoon of them come in to fuck up a government in a POC majority country and the heroes are the security forces of said countries who repel the invaders and embarass the shit out of the colonizing country. Actually I would like to see several movies about this.
I need to write more. I am brimming with ideas but the resilency to sit down and write is lacking. Because I keep getting hung up on the fact that what sounds great in my head doesnt come out as such on paper. *sigh*
2. Rest strained/pulled muscle (possibly hip abductor) whatever it is so it gets better.
3. Venture out for concerts Saturday and Sunday nights.
4. Laundry? If my muscle is better. It is raining a lot this weekend, so I might not want to trek to the laundromat for that.
5. Try not to be too frustrated with my injury.
Does Terebithia know that Zola is one of the most powerful and dangerous people in Europa? Almost certainly yes.
Does she care? No. She's been doing this since before even Lucrezia was a baby...
*throws up hands*
I started reading The Hanging Tree yesterday and I'm more than half done already, so that's something. It feels great to be reading a book I can't wait to return to.
1) What makes a good potty? The number of variations is overwhelming. We want something pretty simple, I think: looks like a toilet, no branded characters, doesn't play music, sits on the floor, is basically a bucket with a seat. In the more distant future we'll need one that folds up or goes over the toilet seat or something, for when we're on the road, but right now this is just for Kit to examine and contemplate and get used to the idea of.
2) Like most 18-month-olds, Kit is full of energy. Unlike most 18-month-olds, Kit can barely walk unassisted and can't run or jump. They've only just started climbing around on the most low-level playground equipment and are very uncertain; they can get up five steps to the top of the baby slide but haven't yet sorted out how to slide down it. When they can't burn off all that energy, they get very agitated and fussy. How do we help them get something like vigorous exercise on the weekends? So far my only idea is to take their walker wagon to the park so they can toddle along at a fairly fast clip for longer distances than our apartment allows—there's a good smoothly paved straightaway there—but that's a pain because the sidewalk between here and there is very uneven and narrow, so I'd have to figure out some way to carry the (heavy, bulky, non-folding) wagon while pushing Kit in the stroller, and that may surpass my own physical limitations. Maybe a lightweight folding medical-style walker? Is that a ridiculous expense for a kid who probably won't need it anymore by the end of the summer? And what do we do when it's not park weather? The nearest real play space for kids is the Brooklyn Children's Museum and it's kind of a haul from here—two buses, and you have to fold the stroller on the bus. They can only crawl around our apartment for so long.
EDIT: We did have a great dance party to the B-52s on Sunday—their pure sincerity is a perfect match for toddler sincerity, plus a good beat—so I should remember that's an option for indoor days. Friends on Twitter and elsewhere also suggested walking while holding Kit's hands/arms; playing follow-the-leader movement games ("Stretch WAAAAAY up high! Now bend WAAAAAY down low!") or doing movement to songs; setting up a tumbling mat and big foam blocks to climb on if we can get some that fit Kit's room (need to measure the open floor space); getting a cheap flimsy lightweight doll stroller to use as a walker in the park.
I'd really appreciate any suggestions on either or both fronts!
Yesterday my phone rang and I answered, not looking at the caller's number, thinking it was my mother. The caller asked for me by my full name, and I realized she was speaking Malay. Basically, she asked about a package from Amazon UK, whether I've received it and when. I had to speak loudly because the connection wasn't that good. After the call ended, I stared at the caller's number. Yes, it's a Malaysian number. The point is that I was surprised that the closest (the main?) drop-off point for Amazon UK deliveries seems to be in Malaysia.
The top 10 scenes from Shingeki no Kyojin S2. Carnage! Mind control! Possibly failed kiss!
After work I got a bit of shopping done, mostly to get the bulky packet of toilet paper out of the way.
( good deed of the day? I need to record this for myself, because I did something right )
uh, so yeah. Grocery shopping got done. I doodled a little, but less than I had planned, but I still have daily sketches for today and tomorrow, so I'll be able to juggle that.
( have a treehopper! )
Then I remembered I hadn't touched writing all week yet, when I wanted to have something ready to post by Friday. I was not paralysed by nerves, and looked at the drafts I have, and found a complete or nearly complete one for the next chapter. Edited and added a little, So that will just need another once-over for typos and such, formatting and then can be posted.
I also unfollowed a few people on tumblr because I spend too much time there and not enough making stuff. And got an add-on that hides the bottom of long posts under a cut, and I added a few more terms to my blacklist - not because of phobias or other triggers, just because people I follow and don't want to unfollow sometimes make floods of posts about series or games I'm not interested in and yeah.
Oh, and I did the dishes.
ohgosh I'm tied. Tired. bedwards. G'night
My dad was a good model for how to gently enjoy human absurdity and I remember him being super entertained by the pet rock and playing along with it super well.
The real question is, what do I read next? From the TBR, I have the following candidates that I am most interested in right now. Thoughts on what I should choose?
The Hanging Tree (Rivers of London) by Ben Aaronovitch.
The House of Shattered Wings (A Dominion of the Fallen Novel) by Aliette de Bodard.
Court of Fives by Kate Elliott.
Lagoon by Nnedi Okorafor.
People always ask me what I'm passionate about, and I tell them the following story: When I was a little kid, my grandmother took me to see an injustice. I got so mad! I threw my red white and blue popsicle down on the ground. My grandmother picked it up and said, "Winner, these colors are sacred. Never let them drop." And I said, "I know, Grandma, but I don't like to see injustice!" and she said, "That's just the world we live in. Unless you grow up and devise common-sense policy solutions to do something about it. And don't forget the men who died to give that right to you, and proudly stand up to defend her still today."
I think sex is bad unless it falls into one of the five categories below that also conveniently align with my policy proposals:
-- you are thinking about tax reform during it
-- other people are having it and you are vocally disapproving of it
-- at least one of the people involved is committed to being a great dad
-- it involves one willing participant who is a male celebrity
-- it is binding Americans together and serving to restore our common values
So one way I know that I am hopelessly sentimental about civic virtue and so on, and that part of me is an utter sucker for "common-sense policy solutions"/"binding Americans together"-type rhetoric, is that even this parody makes me mist up a little bit. Also I have literally cried (albeit on an airplane) at a Doritos ad that championed bipartisanship.
(As a young'un I came across a copy of Art Buchwald's I Never Danced at the White House and read it and thus learned about Watergate. Art Buchwald was a political humor columnist for the Washington Post. I am imagining some twelve-year-old girl in 2039 reading a Petri collection, getting about 30% of the jokes and enjoying it a lot.)
(Also I should look up whether there is critical scholarship discussing Alexandra Petri, Alexandra Erin, the Toast work of Mallory Ortberg, and whoever else is doing .... this kind of thing in this era. *handwave*)
Uh! Noy! Ing!
If I knew what I'd done to cause this soreness, I'd be less annoyed about it.
Icon purge! Out of 69 icons I deleted 61 and felt good about it. This one is new, made from silverwind's scans of Naruto Stage Play 2017 bromides.
If you swear by your Myers-Briggs type, we have bad news. That explains why I got different results each time.
Teshirogi Shiori draws Justice League Origin: Wonder Woman manga. Superman looks like short-haired Gemini Aspros.
Probably shameful confession: I watched the first season of the TV series Gotham, just because it's readily available. The cliches, they abound. The future Penguin and Riddler are suitably irritating with dedicated performance by their actors. As an origin story it's so-so. Teen Bruce is slowly gaining bigger confidence in himself, and looks vaguely like one of my friends' son. Teen Selina is very beautiful, like a young Michelle Pfeiffer, and morally flexible.
I haven't checked Wiki yet but the series seems to end in S3 with a 2-hour long season finale? Might just go straight there.
2. Laundry is done, including the comforter! Winter coat is next. Even more amazing, I have put most of it away already.
3. I want to attend concerts on both Saturday and Sunday evenings. Neither is hugely expensive.
4. I made good progress on reading my review book. It was only getting started that was difficult.
5. We're getting thunderstorms today, so the humidity might clear out a bit.
I just shaved about a pound of side hair off (it is thick) and have put it in the worm bin. Good compost aeration! And, felt happy I had cleaned and organized the closet weeks ago as I easily found my little box of house dresses.
I'm wearing this amazing reversible soft linen sleeveless dress, with a pocket for my handkerchief, that I got from Flax on skud's recommendation a few years ago (converting me fervently to linen) And my hair has been up in a top of the head ponytail all day (now much more effective with the side hair shaved off.) I think of skud affectionately whenever I wear this amazing dress (maroon on one side and lavender on the other). The pocket handkerchief is daintily printed with violets. I ironed it the other day, as I enjoy doing.
Now you know everything. All my secrets. Dresses, ironing, and the fact that I have that chicken yodeling song stuck in my head.
I can't actually remember getting in the car or getting home at all but I believe Dossie must have got here and then Milo was here as well so.... ?
Not sure if it is worth it. Some times I feel better immediately but this time I have been in an annoying (semi incapacitating) level of pain at the injection sites from Thursday to Saturday. I had to skip a nice board game birthday party and a punk rock history movie. Very quiet weekend alone. Rosa came over for tea and to pick up some things - I haven't seen her in a while. I am somewhat functional but in small bits and without bending over much. The quiet weekend has meant I am more than caught up on tidying up after myself and other people. When that happens I can make inroads on the accumulated disorder. We need to get rid of some books. Also, I think the anesthetic and sedative and steroids together made me feel strange, brainless, aimless, exhausted.
Today has been better. I went up the hill to Pinhole cafe and went through some bits of 3 different notebooks. I tried to copy any worthwhile bits out of the big black moleskine one from December into the 2 new ones, especially working on the Andromeda and Venus poems. I am fairly happy with the first bit, have lots of the 2nd, some of the 3rd but it is not quite coalesced and something to #4. Nothing on 5 (Maybe?) But the structure is more clear to me. I wrote some new snippets and copied over other parts. Found the notes I took in my lap at the actual dance performance that it's about.
Horrors when I was on my way to Dossie's office Tues. evening and realized there was NO NOTEBOOKS WTF. I got a substandard one in the walgreens (nothing else open) So here is my entry from it before I tear out the pages and pass the unsuitable notebook on. (I am too fussy, but I don't like a yucky feeling cover, or a size too small with binding too tight, as I can't think on paper well without wider space)
>>> Lovely jcab driver named Yosief from Eritrea a poet who used to write for the newspapers. We talked about the route and the pleasure of driving around to random places following where someone else wants to go (better than seeing nothing in a 7-11 as he was at first and no one would talk with him) It is other people's choices. We admired Glen Park Canyon as we drove up the street alongside.
His family's place in Eritrea is very beautiful with trees with fruit of all kinds, grapes, plums, and their neighbor had cows so they would trade for milk. The family thought of expanding the house but it would have meant cutting down some of the fruit trees so they had a big family meeting and decided not to. He feels like trees with fruit almost have a soul. You have to respect them. I added you feel connected to the land when you eat something you know comes right from it that you grew and picked.
He described how Trump is just like the dictator in Eritrea , how they fought for independence but then got a dictator for 26 years no better than before. America is supposed to be for disagreeing and discussing anything you want without hate. He has a picture he cut out from the paper of Nancy Pelosi and John Boehner kissing each other on the cheek and shaking hands which he framed and put on the wall as it is the spirit of America that they completely disagree but can at least act friendly. But now maybe things are going bad and we can't think that we are immune from society falling apart. It can happen here, and the rich and greedy are the same everywhere, they only want power and they don't care what happens otherwise. He has to call up his family and tell them everything about politics, and they try to protect him by telling him it will be OK... because they know he's sensitive.
In case you can't tell this was all completely charming and I told him how I am also a poet and translator and about Carmen's book and said we should email and send poems. I went to write down my email and realized NO NOTEBOOK and not a scrap of paper on me. This never happens! How embarrassing just when I claimed to be a writer! He put his email into my phone but then i accidentally thought i lost it when I closed the email app. But! Found it! Now, he wonders if I will help him translate a poem? I may do this (counting on no misunderstanding about a meetup)
My plan was to hang out in pt. reyes town and write and work on poems while D. was at her appointment but no notebook. I can likely buy a decent one there in the bookstore.
Middle section of poem cycle as visual play across page with form? In a cleft or split going vertically for the structural supports. Too much? Or better have it underpin every page or some pages running through the whole thing as the supports should be 100% visible. Rodin's anatomical studies for those guys in the village (aldermen?). So, either that or 3rd section would be ramp/cleft/structure and 4th would be naiads.
Thinking of the free play across the page that I admire. The comical woman crossing the atlantic communist poem, Elvira H. Carta de viaje - more free and far-ranging. That space & far-ranging wide freedom has to underpin the entire Descent cycle. Consider also American Air (together with carta de viaje, atlantic, ibarbourou atlantic poems, in its own little book?)
Note, add Florentino book to ebook list for Burn This Press. Nearly forgot it.
Punchline of this is that a day later I found one of the 3 notebooks at the very bottom of my big backpack. So was able to work after all, with notes.
audio: CHVRCHES, "Clearest Blue"
stream: on Vimeo
download: 229MB on Dropbox
summary: "While you were being heterosexual, I studied the blades on ice." -- @viktorbottom
Premiered at vidukon_cardiff 2017.
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Vidding TV shows is so much work. I was cutting this one until about two hours before the deadline, exacerbated by the fact that the Blu-Ray of the last volume came out literally the day before the deadline. I initially used a low quality rip of the creditless ending and was resigned to a different version online than on the con DVD, but then due to some serendipitous technical difficulties, resolved at length by the very patient and excellent con staff, I actually was able to get a file with a high quality rip of the ending into the con--of course it came out less than 24 hours after said deadline. (If I ever get access to Blu-Ray rips, I may remaster it, just because they changed so much for the disc releases.)
As for the vid itself…I had this song in mind since about January. Yuuri and Victor love each other a lot, okay, and they meet each other in the middle, eventually, every time.
♦ Mesmerizing mermaid photos reveal awful truth about our oceans.
The spinoffs of Attack on Titan. The light novel Before the Fall and most of the spinoff manga series have been licensed in Indonesia, except for Lost Girls (why).
♦ It's probably official that Toei has forgotten about the Saintia Shou anime or is moving it to another date farther down the calendar.
In unrelated news, Hori Hideyuki is still voice-acting. :o
♦ Upcoming wuxia adaptations that are not Jin Yong:
Gu Long: The Twins, Liu Xiaofeng, Chu Liuxiang
Liang Yusheng: Wudang Yijian. Bottom line: A boy grows up to avenge parents and gets entangled in Wudang business. As always, producers aren't that eager for Liang's novels where a woman (or more than one) is the focus or on the title, except when they can rewrite the story into a trajik romance. *sigh*
(Also the theme tune just switched to a new arrangement and I am still getting used to this.)
I am slow and stiff and a terrible hitter under the fast-moving "you get two pitches only, good or bad" rules, but I do love playing catch, and playing catcher.
We'll see how well and how fast this bruise heals. It's quite annoying. I am not sure I should play again, but I want to play.
I need to think on it more.
So, she offed all the others but left one? Any reason to save the last? I'm impressed by her level of control, she's clearly a worthy heir.
I also read To the Sticking Place by blueink3, a Sherlock AU in which Holmes and Watson are actors in a "Macbeth" revival on Broadway. The romance was schmoopy at times, but I loved all the theatre neep. One thing that made me laugh is normally I wouldn't be interested in an all-male cast for that particular play (not done for historicity), but I can see why a slash story would want it to work that way.
It's still not clear to me which of the two uttered the word balloon in Monday's comic ... but that hardly matters now. We know who's in charge.
Two co-pays down the drain, but at least I had the option of seeing doctors at all, so I am grateful.
And I realized that it really does feel like the internet is a big hole that I leap into every day and then need to crawl back up all the time. And I do my work on the internet so I need to wear a harness to keep me from falling too far. Protective gear, like anyone doing anything dangerous.
("The abyss is no Sunday swan ride," as one Steven Universe character has said.)
I have sometimes referred to Twitter as an attention casino. And that is true and it's a metaphor that helps remind me that there is someone else specifically working to make money off other people's addictions and that the experience is designed to keep me there in the hopes of intermittent reward. But this sinkhole metaphor reminds me that it is the nature of the Internet to be an endless sink to fall down, and that I can wear a harness to help keep myself safe. And therefore I have just installed Leechblock on this machine.
Meditation would also count.
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* installed Go, and thus learned a little about Go package installation
* remembered some things about Python virtualenvs
* it doesn't matter what directory you're in when you run a psql command to, for instance, create a new PostgreSQL user
* when helping a newer team member who seems to be floundering, it really does help with overwhelmption to say "ok, is this a list of all the problems you are facing? ok, let us address them one at a time" and then knock off the easy ones first
* petl is a Python library to make it easier to extract, transform, and load data
I am hoping the dermatologist (or whatever resident or whatever actually sees me) gives me a general look over and perhaps prescribes retinol if that is something that is good for very, very pale people. I am prepared to tell them that though I use sunscreen every single morning, I usually do not reapply at all, or only do so once, unless I am really really in the sun. And I neglect my feet and ears. That is just how it is.
I decided to skip the gym today. Partly it's because new-to-me medical stuff always freaks me out and afterwards I want to hide. Partly it's because I stayed up way too late with drinkingcocoa watching the Tonys so will be too tired for a good workout; my own fault, and I'm not sorry.
Speaking of the Tonys, I really liked the musical performances for "Come From Away" and "Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812." "The Great Comet" appears to be quite the spectacle! I also really liked the song from "Dear Evan Hansen" despite being prejudiced against songs that are very narratively talky-style. Except the singer, Ben Platt, really sold it to me; he has a really good voice, light and flexible with amazing control, and he didn't oversell at any point.
Also, I got bonus Leslie Odom, Jr. with the Rockettes, so yay!