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What the hell has been going on lately? Feels like every other friend I've encountered online and off has been struck by depression, all at once. I've been hella depressed too, and it's a fucking miracle to be able to write just a measly 400 words a fucking day. I can't get out of bed earlier than 10am, I get to campus around noon, and I stay until maybe 6pm, come home, eat, and then I have no idea what happens to my brain.

I've taken to sleep aid pills, which IDK, I don't think I've had this problem with the liquid version? I'll go back to the liquid version and see if that's any different. But really, shit like ZZZquil is meant for occasional use, not regular use. Blargh. And then there's the fact that I can sleep 8 hours and still wake up feeling under-rested and like hot garbage. I'm going to the fucking doctor. It's time for my yearly physical anyway. I just feel terrified because I've been devouring so much shitty food I'm pretty sure I'm pre-diabetic
by now =(

I thought I finished editing my first chapter, but now that I think about it, after having sent it off, it's not really done and needs a concluding paragraph that pulls the argument together. Argh. I'm gonna try to look it over again tomorrow and see what I can do. They said the editing stage was easier, it was the first draft that was the hardest, but I think that's a god damn fucking lie!

I'm trying to walk more too, for Pokemon Go, but ugh, IDK, IDK.

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Yeah. I am trying to remember to look forward to WisCon and to various concerts I'm attending. That helps a little, but UGH the news every morning.

Yeah, I was SO BLAH a while back, I couldn't even get myself out of bed for two highly-anticipated events. Even now I'm waffling on buying tickets for WisCon.

I had to make the decision already, because plane tickets. I skipped the Science March yesterday, though. It was raining and I was SO TIRED.

Ugh I feel you so hard. Maybe what we could do is go to WisCon, and huddle in a corner somewhere? Solidarity corner for the depressed?

I imagine it will have to be a pretty large corner, if my DWircle is any indication....

It's been a very hard fall and winter, geopolitically. I feel like a lot of us spent early spring recovering from the shock of it, only to then realize that things are going to be rough for a long time, at which point the depression sets in.

I hope you feel better soon.

It's catching too, because friends of mine who aren't actually that affected politically (we're all international students) have also been suffering the same =( I hope we all feel better soon too!!

I am trying not to be U.S.-centric! But also aware that when the U.S. president's asshattedness extends to things like military action and (non-)diplomacy, it can affect people who are from or living elsewhere. :( And things in Europe are scary too right now.

(backreading last 50 posts in inadequate attempt to catch up)

I suspect whether editing or first draft is harder varies so much depending on the writer, the editors, _and_ the work! All our stuff at work goes through reviewers and that's my experience, anyway.

*support support support* on the depression. Hope your doctor has useful things.

I generally find editing for creative work easier, but academically, editing is definitely harder!