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Aug. 29th, 2020 05:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jhameia- I've mostly been quiet because thinking about days where I'm just working or writing, I just don't feel like I have anything to say on here. I try to work around 5 hours a day, because my sleep hours are so wonky, and some days I get more hours in, and some days I don't. I'm okay with remote working, but not so hot on the organising my days so I can have a conversation with co-workers thing.
- The US Consulate is now open for appointments again! I nabbed the first one I could get. It's in...... January, 2021.
I'm not sure how I feel about it. Mostly because I'm in a depressive funk right now where it's like, what is the point of anything right now? I'm struggling to write and deliver things I've been promising people since last year. Because of the pandemic, I've made no headway connecting with people here.
I'm just tired emotionally and have run out of ability to cope.
- I've run out of steam on this fanfic-turned-onovel as soon as I hit the last arc and I'm at a loss for how to proceed with it. I know I need to go back and rewrite the entire thing (I've got lots of bits that I'll be keeping, but there's a whole setup that needs to happen). I'm suffering a whole complex where I thuoght I knew where this plot was going and how it was ending and what the next big conflict is, but I'm also torn between the different options of "RIDICULOUS AND OVER THE TOP, HILARIOUS PROBABLY ONLY TO ME" and "somewhat realistic, in keeping with the capabilities of the characters."
- The US Consulate is now open for appointments again! I nabbed the first one I could get. It's in...... January, 2021.
I'm not sure how I feel about it. Mostly because I'm in a depressive funk right now where it's like, what is the point of anything right now? I'm struggling to write and deliver things I've been promising people since last year. Because of the pandemic, I've made no headway connecting with people here.
I'm just tired emotionally and have run out of ability to cope.
- I've run out of steam on this fanfic-turned-onovel as soon as I hit the last arc and I'm at a loss for how to proceed with it. I know I need to go back and rewrite the entire thing (I've got lots of bits that I'll be keeping, but there's a whole setup that needs to happen). I'm suffering a whole complex where I thuoght I knew where this plot was going and how it was ending and what the next big conflict is, but I'm also torn between the different options of "RIDICULOUS AND OVER THE TOP, HILARIOUS PROBABLY ONLY TO ME" and "somewhat realistic, in keeping with the capabilities of the characters."
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Date: 2020-08-29 06:15 pm (UTC)